So it turns out asking her out, wasn’t as bad an idea as I thought, as I didn’t get a “No” but what did I get, am I second best, waiting to be used if the the guy in first place isn’t ideal? Should I fight for this, or it would it make things worse, and destroy all chances. Then again, do I want the chance to be just a runner-up. Argh stupid brain, stupid heart, stupid everything!

Discovered today, now that Sonisphere has been and gone and I’ve paid this month’s rent, that I have £60 left in my bank…and that’s meant to last me the rest of the month? Ha ha…like that’ll happen.

Friday can’t get here quick enough. I have hardly any time to recover from the weekend, as a result I’m still worn out, drained and aching. With a day off not until Friday I think I might just pass out at work and sleep there. Who knows. C’mon Friday only a day and a half left. Then finally I can get rest

hmmm…I’d have to say going on holiday with my family at like age 5 I believe it was. We went to the Isle of Wight I remember going to see how glass was shaped, and using the chair lift, we also filled plastic keyrings with different coloured sand, and we did the same with a glass dog (which I still own)

I decided to blog, something I thought I’d never do, I used to use another place to post this kind of stuff, but it has since closed down.

Anyway.

Went to Sonisphere this weekend, and it was fucking EPIC!!!!!!!

Went with a few friends, one of which I liked sometime ago, but accepted that nothing more than friendship would come of it, and my feelings subsided, and I did see them as just a friend. 

Well we were having an absolutely incredible time, and it was during this time that hanging out with them my feelings came back, stronger than before, and it didn’t help that even if they didn’t mean to be they were being kinda flirty, although that maybe just the way I saw it, either way, they met someone in one of the bars and got talking to them. They then spent the rest of the night together.

So I took my mind off it by seeing a few bands until the last act of the day (ended just after midnight). I then went back to the tent only to find that the folks I’d gone with were lame and had all gone to sleep. So I headed back to the bar to have a few drinks to take my mind off it.

It didn’t last for long, as I felt I really needed to talk to someone about it, I returned to the tent, sat outside, and smoked a few cigs, hoping that someone would wake up. They didn’t. The next morning I learned that the 2 had slept together that night, and although I enjoyed the rest of the weekend, that fact was always at the back of my mind.

I don’t quite know if I should tell them how I feel, but I don’t wanna lose the friendship, but at the same time, it’s playing hell with my emotions.

I really like them and this is really getting me down, I can deal with the fact they had sex, but its just not knowing what I should do is killing me.

I always do this to myself, I always seem to go for the people who I know don’t and most likely won’t ever like me the same way, and yet I always fall for them.

I am ridiculous and pathetic, not to mention pissed off at myself.

On a happier note though, I saw a lot of awesome bands over the weekend, I saw some of my faves and some that I hadn’t really listend to. Most were epic, the ones I saw in no particular order were:

Alice Cooper (Simply amazing show, completely blew me away, and I hope I get a chance to see him live again)

Family Force 5 (Good, but not really my thing)

Soulfly

Lacuna Coil

Anthrax (Awesome)

Sabaton (Never heard of them before, fucking mind blowing)

Katatonia

Slayer (Rocked so damn hard)

Alice In Chains (One of my faves of the weekend)

Rammstein (Explosive show, thoroughly enjoyed the show even though I’m not a huge a fan)

Apocalyptica

Therapy? (Played the Troublegum album from start to end, and aside from a few technical issues at the start, were amazing)

Karnivool (Who were completely rubbish, the only act of the weekend that I actually walked away from before they finished)

And lastly Iron Maiden Who were absolutley incredible, and although I wasn’t really a fan before, they have completely changed that, they were simply amazing.

There may have been more, I can’t remember, so all things aside the weekend turned out to be spectacular, and now I’m back home I wanna do it all over again, so uh……next year. I think so.